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TEARDROPS


It’s already 10.40pm and I know I should be sleeping. No matter how hard I tried of convincing myself to sleep now (or I’d be totally bald in the next 5 years), I only get to find myself going back to incessantly annoying thoughts. So I decided to leave a few more words to hopefully translate everything on this blog.

I feel like I've been crying the whole day—In fact, I actually cried so hard in the afternoon while being so... emotionless. Apathetic.

Have you ever experienced that moment of suddenly finding yourself crying out with no reason at all?

I must be really pushing myself into crying. Well at least I still had the energy to make myself believe that.

I knew what this is but I was too complacent to know. I was being so full of myself, believing that I STILL do things righteously without exercising humility and reverence to the One who provided me of every single thing I ask or otherwise.

Now I am contently crying my heart out as I accept all these by heart--that I still make mistakes. Everyone does. But because I put my trust in Him without leaning on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5), I am at peace.

I’m dusting everything off and be back to where I should go.

May the Lord help me with all I do.